What direction can I move this blog toward?

February 10, 2010

Hey ya’ll, Feel free to drop your ideas and what I can incorporate into my blog or ask me questions about me that I can help you decide.

These are my interests for the blog: Inspiring, motivating, self reflection

I would say these are my strengths are things people would be interested in hearing from me:                                                                                 — life balance, relative high school success, optimism, college apps, studying/learning hacks/tips/advice/techniques, life at Stanford, choosing colleges, learning brazilian jujitsu, learning chinese, idk whatever.

hit me up.

❤ you carl. hollaaa


Failure Apathy

January 28, 2010

“I’ve failed so many times before I succeeded.” We’ve heard so many famous and successful idols of ours say this have we not? I’ve always thought that I haven’t reached this point yet—that I haven’t failed enough, tried enough to get to the point of success. Recently, a couple weeks ago, I realized that I have already reached this milestone of success—I’ve just kept going, kept grinding—apathetic to failure.; however, being apathetic to failure may may be a double-sided sword…

Sigmund Freud was booed from the podium when he first presented his ideas to the scientific community of Europe. He returned to his office and kept on writing.

Thomas Edison’s teachers said he was “too stupid to learn anything.” He was fired from his first two jobs for being “non-productive.” As an inventor, Edison made 1,000 unsuccessful attempts at inventing the light bulb. When a reporter asked, “How did it feel to fail 1,000 times?” Edison replied, “I didn’t fail 1,000 times. The light bulb was an invention with 1,000 steps.”

Henry Ford failed and went broke five times before he succeeded.

When college first started, I went for everything that struck my business interest—organizations like Finance, Consulting, Freshman Business Internship, Entrepreneurship, and Investing.  I got into the Blyth Fund–the investing organization on campus. It didn’t have an application. I received a first round interview for Finance, an interview for the F. Business Internship, and didn’t hear from Consulting and the Entrepreneurship (BASES). I kept going.

A month after those initial failures, I applied for a Graduate School of Business (GSB) Mentor and for a free opportunity to have an insidetrack coach. I’ve received a phone-interview for a potential internship with a start-up (www.rentalic.com)—my GSB mentor forwarded me the link.  I’ve also received an interview for a potential spot on a Leadership Merge Team with SEE and Let’s get Ready non profit organizations. I’ll know if I get accepted within a week. I’m ready to learn anything my mentors or anyone is willing to teach. I’m ready to prove myself when given the opportunities.

We just had our 2nd meeting with our SHOC team (Study Hacks on Campus) yesterday http://studyhacksoncampus-stanford.blogspot.com/. I plan to help start a breakdance/fusion group on campus with a friend—-he’s getting held back in his current group now.  I can’t stand seeing him in an atmosphere that limits his potential—WHEN he has the CHOICE to not be.

Negative side of  Failure Apathy: Not learning from mistakes….

Early on, I was ignorant—felt superior to my failures. I did not fail. They failed me. Just apathetic.  Recently, by reflecting on past failures I realized that my values and reasons were not clear enough. They just slipped away. Those values that I entered college with were forgotten—values like being family-oriented, humble, graciousness, and honest.

An expert said of Vince Lombardi: “He possesses minimal football knowledge and lacks motivation.” Lombardi would later write, “It’s not whether you get knocked down; it’s whether you get back up.”

Michael Jordan and Bob Cousy were each cut from their high school basketball teams. Jordan once observed, “I’ve failed over and over again in my life. That is why I succeed.”

Quote Source: http://www.des.emory.edu/mfp/efficacynotgiveup.html


“Who are you becoming?”

January 6, 2010

Today was are second day of the new Winter Quarter—our 111th day at Stanford… The Vice Provost provided the numbers…and also the quote: “Who are you becoming?”

If you could recall the book written by a British author, the question, and some other facts, he gave you a free ipod on the spot. I still can’t remember after our mid year convocation. THe new year has started with a fresh pair of eyes and a desire to succeed. Control is present and so is that energy of unlimited possibilities. It is present again as it once was during New student orientation.  I have several goals in mind–although I didn’t really make them for new years resolutions, why not just label them as so:

I have three big projects on the side–I suppose you can count these as my extracurriculars, for I’m not part of any legit team or organization on campus yet, besides the investing Blyth Fun Club (I’m seeing it as a way to simply expand my knowledge and practical uses). So back to those three big projects:

1) Start a Club on campus–I’m just beginning to get interested friends who want to become founders, but I’m already thinking of the title of “Jumpstart.”

2) Helping Cal Newport (www.calnewport.com) to host study hacks on campus –SHOC–helping fellow students, Cal, and myself to achieve the lifestyle that we desire.

3) Continuing to pursue my lucid dreaming interest through http://www.lucidipedia.com & opening new doors.

So far, I’m creating the life style that I desire; this is, however, only day two.  I will make it. And I will succeed. A goal of mine is to become fluent in mandarin (speaking) (writing and reading can lack a little) by the end of this school year. I’m on my way.

#2 All in the world recognize the beautiful as beautiful

“…Therefore the sage produces without possessing,

Acts without expectations

And accomplishes without abiding in her accomplishments.

It is precisely because she does not abide in them

That they never leave her.”

Works Cited:  Lao Tzu, Lao Te Ching.  New York: Barnes & Noble Classics, 2005. Print


New style: Start off posts with section of the Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu

December 28, 2009

The Tao that can be followed is not the eternal Tao.

THe name that can be named is not the eternal name.

The nameless is the origin of heaven and earth

While naming is the origin of the myriad things.

Therefore, always desireless, you see the mystery

Ever desiring, you see the manifestations.

These two are the same—

When they appear they are named differently.

THis sameness is the mystery,

Mystery within mystery;

The door to all marvels.

When younger I feared the darkness, avoided it, ran past it–my only savior was the light that made things before my eyes appear with shape and color.  The lightbulb, the light switch made the darkness vanish.  I was in grade school–5th grade. I was 11 years old. That was year 2000.

I am 19 now. It is 2009, almost 2010. Last night, my peoples–mom and Stewart (her boyfriend)–found their temporary escapes by getting out of the house. Last night alone, I walked willingly into the darkness and sat on my bed crossed legged. I closed my eyes.  I opened them back up, emptied my past fears, and my eyes welcomed the darkness…

and I conquered.

Works Cited:  Lao Tzu, Lao Te Ching.  New York: Barnes & Noble Classics, 2005. Print


Books of Leisure read during College :)

December 28, 2009

Date Finished Book

1/02/10                             Percy Jackson & the Olympians: The Lightning Thief

12/23/09                           How to Become a Straight-A Student by Cal Newport

12/26/09                           How to Win at College by Cal Newport

11/29/09                           Predictably Irrational by Dan Aierly

10/??/09                            The 50th Law by 50 Cent & Robert Greene

What I talk about when Running by Haruki Murakami

iCon by Steve Jobs

What Should I do with My Life? by Po Bronson


Just Nike it. Just do it.

December 22, 2009

A habit of mine that I’ve noticed and attempting to overcome is my habit of constantly attempting to place everything in order before I get to the major point, the meat of what I am trying to do.  In this instance, it is writing on this blog. I feel that I have to perfectly organize my posts, have a complementing blog theme, organize my ideas, etc etc. The list goes on and on. That everything has to be grammatically correct, sentence structures acceptable by my AP ENglish teacher Mrs. Wright. But, I’m able to step back and see this as another form of procrastination in my life. Maybe writing in blogs is also another form of procrastination for some, and maybe in the future for myself as well; but right now, I feel that I should do this. I see so many possibilities that this blog can achieve–personal business, helping others, getting my ideas down, motivating myself.

Just nike it. Just doing it–is exactly what I’m doing. I promise you, my non-existent readers and followers, [for now], that I will work on my organizational skills in writing this blog; but until that time, I will continue to pour my thoughts as they come and how they come to be.

Why am I even doing this blog? Well, my friend Duylam introduced me to wordpress; here he is http://oohdee.wordpress.com/ . Anyways, my goals for this blog are the following (not in any particular order). [And I write very specific goals in order to achieve them with clarity–influenced by Cal Newport (www.calnewport.com)

– Self motivation to follow through with things that I say I will achieve and accomplish by making my goals known.

– Putting my ideas and thoughts of psychology interests, specifically lucid dreaming, memory, mnemonics, microexpressions (behavioral psychology), body language—mostly practical things.

– Advertising a small future tutoring business, specializing in the SAT, college apps, scholarship apps, high school student life style for success, perhaps piano?

– Ultimately, sharing ideas that other people can relate to, inspiring, clarifying (ELUCIDATING–ooooo), motivating, and establishing several strong connections with other readers and/or bloggers.

Have a good Christmas, Hanukkah, break, holiday etc. I really do not like how things have to be politically correct (random thoughts)

P.S. Just remember, there are others who have bigger problems than you do in life.


Best Inspirational/Motivational Movies

December 18, 2009
  • Remember the Titans
  • Invincible
  • Coach Carter
  • Friday Night Lights
  • The Express: Ernie Davis
  • The Hurricane (Carter)